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May 4th, 2005
04:03 pm - update
I know I've been MIA for a long while but I'm gonna stop by and give a quick update.
Sworn into the USAF April 15, 2005 yeah!!!!
Ship off date August 5, 2005 woohoo!!!
lol well thats about it but yeah been hectic but things are starting to look up i'll talk to everyone laters.
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November 15th, 2004
11:23 am - today is a f-ed up day
Just when I got alot of my $hit settle with my recruiter and the creditors and whatnot I get the most disturbing aim from my friend Andrew today.
His brother Steve committed suicide at his school in UCLA and his funeral is this wednesday. Steve is one of my closest friend I ever had and no this fucking thing pops up with all the shit thats been happening to me. I dont know if i can take anymore of this. I try to wake up every morning with a smile and find something to do but these nails keep on flying at my heart and I dont know if i can take it.
Today i'm gonna spend it crying, I thought i had good news to celebrate with but now fuck it.
R.I.P Steven Le 1983-2004 Your memory will live on with me bro. Hope to see you again soon.
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November 13th, 2004
04:52 pm
You were destined to have a Red Lightsaber.
Red is the color of fire and blood, so it is
associated with energy, war, danger, strength,
power, and determination as well as passion and
desire. You have seen the Strength and Power of
the Dark Side of the Force and have you thirst
for more of it.
What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
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November 8th, 2004
07:20 am - I Guess Its Over
Well, I really think its over for me folks that I screwed up and theres no way of fixing it.
This is probably gonna be the last post for awhile for me. I'm still goin to the Air Force and I still am going to own my own monster home and the 20 car garage with everything and have a 100k+ yearly income. I still have my dream life for the future and I still have that desire and focus to obtain it. Just now I'm not gonna have someone I love so much there to share it with me. Whether or not I'll be happy with it or not I'm gonna just have to let time tell and if I'm able to find someone else who I love, like I have loved Rebecca, who wants to share in that life with me I'm just gonna have to see. I dont know, maybe I will maybe I wont.
Honestly from my point of view now, materialistic things only appeal to me up to the point where I can live comfortable is all that I need. Whether I buy a small single family home with a car that can take me to point a to point b and I can provide solid meals everyday for my family is no different than if I own a 5 acre mansion with 50 exotic cars and have the means to feed a small nation. But that doesnt mean I dont have the potential to strive to become a rich and powerful man. I just find workaholics and guys who have that wealth and power tend to want more and more in life, a collector of sorts you could say, and that they can't stay loyal and faithful to one thing or one person. Thats not my personality and thats not who I am.
I am a romantic deep down, I think its not wrong to build a solid life for someone you love because ultimately its a life you want to share with that person and that if I didnt love them all that much then why would I make a life the way I want it just to be selfish, and that may not be the life that someone I would live with till I die might like. I wouldnt want to try to love someone who didnt consider my feelings with their plans in life. Its not noble, its common sense, if you love someone then your gonna think about their feelings and compromise your life and change it so they can be happy to share a lifetime with that person.
But I've learned that there are some women out there that needs a man who already have a life built and not just beginning to build it, all ready on a silver platter for them to accept and guys like me who want to build this life and just beginning to, end up falling in love with them and are willing to work hard at making this life for them get burned because they become blind fools.
I dont blame Rebecca, I still love her. If I end up being 50 or 60 and shes still around and shes available and I have this great life and I were available I would still want to marry her, I would still want her to share my life with me. The best thing she's ever shown me is that I have found myself and I have found my desire for life, my own life. Whether I have someone to share it with me or not time will tell because I must have a life before I am able ask someone to accept a life with me.
I'm sorry for the long post and I didnt wanna deal with the LJ cut thingie. Please I want to keep in touch with all of you as my friends feel free to drop me an email at kdnguyen80@hotmail.com wish me luck in the military or just to say hi or even tell me whats been goin on in your life. Well I guess this is goodbye for now.
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October 17th, 2004
03:12 pm - Pretty scary on the accuracy
http://www.thenamesite.com/cgi-bin/compatible.cgi?name1=Ken&name2=Rebecca
Its frightening on how accurate this test is but I'm glad I am so compatiable with Reb. I love you babes always and forever.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ford/sydnicons/Sydney0.gif) happy
Current Music: Under 17 - I'm Your Slave
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October 15th, 2004
07:38 pm
Name Origin: Not available or unknown
Number of Syllables: 1.00
Gender: Male
More interesting facts about the name Ken:
Lucky Number: 3
Ruling Planet: Jupiter
Element: Fire
Primary Color: Yellow
Traits: The investigator; the scientist; the seeker. An interest in material rather than the spiritual. Ideas on religion frequently change. Has a great sense of humor. Not greatly interested in money. Very trusting, yet likes to know the "why" and the "how".
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September 29th, 2004
September 18th, 2004
11:45 pm - new hair cut
sup folks about to go to the casinos just a small update. today got a new hair cut chilled most of the day. I'll post some pics i think i look pretty pimped out.
I miss you Reb and everyday it feels like an eternity until i can see you again but hang in there we'll be together soon. I love you forever and a day. Oyasuminasai minna!
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September 14th, 2004
03:38 am
| My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul |
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| Kentaro_Oe goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as tofu cube. | | carmila gives you 4 tan mint-flavoured jelly beans. | | chandabear tricks you! You get a rock. | | digitalcactus tricks you! You get a rock. | | jibrielle tricks you! You lose 3 pieces of candy! | | kusan00 tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy! | | paulioshi gives you 1 red-orange passionfruit-flavoured gumdrops. | | ragresen gives you 17 light green blueberry-flavoured jelly beans. | | silly_kitsune gives you 1 teal peach-flavoured hard candies. | | suou718 gives you 6 blue strawberry-flavoured gummy worms. | | thebluelady tricks you! You get a block of wood. | | Kentaro_Oe ends up with 25 pieces of candy, a rock, a rock, and a block of wood. | | Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. |
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September 13th, 2004
08:36 pm
Just a small update on whats goin on. Todays workout was intense, my arm and chest are so sore >.
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Lodoss - Adesso E Fortuna
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September 10th, 2004
01:44 pm - frustration
Another day and still I have to wait on Gabe to lose his weight. ARGH I just want to scream and destroy something, I want to get on with my life hit the Air Force with everything I got because another day I am wasting away doin nothing.
I got alot of time to reflect on myself as of late. I suck, period. I have a wonderful girlfriend who is smart, alluring, funny, compationate, and just amazing. She can make my blackest of black days and just make it better just by her smile and happiness. But as of late I can tell shes not happy and that shes frustrated at how her life is and how she seems to be stuck. If I were a better boyfriend I could have changed that, but I'm not, I feel like shit. I cry at nights, I cant make her happy, she seems so sad lately, and this pain just wont go away. Will someone just give us a break here, just get her a nice job or even me. This life just plain blows and it doesnt help when theres about 2fuckingthousandmiles between us. I cant even give a simple hug when she needs it the most. I suck someone shoot me.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ford/sydnicons/Sad.gif) crying
Current Music: Frou Frou -- Let Go
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September 9th, 2004
05:47 pm - update
Well just giving a little update on what I've been up to of the late since I dont have anything to do right now.
First off my myspace has been revamped so it looks and sounds much better, got hopefully my new car in the future as a background and my homie DJ Junior Chavez mixing so come check it out leave me some comments and add me to your friends http://profiles.myspace.com/users/6165715 .
As of late I am back to being unemployed. My friends lan center shut down on August 30th and he was unable to find a new location to move too so he just called it quits after almost 3 yrs. Wow, cyberzone gone I still cant believe it alot of us OG's still get together and reminise about the good ol days. Lol especially how I used to own it up on the lan servers. All that was my prime how I miss it. *sniff*
Gabe came back from the phillipines finally and I guess life has been back to normal. I can't say that I missed him when he was gone because I was doin stuff with Dave and Ito but with him back things just got more interesting.
As for me personally, I have been having this feeling of wanting to acomplish something great as of late. Like doin something where I can make a lot of money and be able to start a family. I guess its because everyone here been wanting to find that perfect job or stressing over how hard its goin for them that I've just been cruising it through. Especially with Rebecca, how everyday shes wanting to find that one job where she can be happy and shes never happy and I cant do anything about it. I cry inside when shes like that and I guess lately I've been being a pest to her. I can understand, times are tough and the least on her mind she needs is me bugging her. Thats why I want to do something great, I want to be able to do something with myself so she can depend on me. I started working out getting ready for the Air Force. I want to be someone important there that will shake the very foundation so that Rebecca wont have to worry or stress over because I'll be there for her. I dont like this feeling I have right now, my chest feels like it wants to cave in on itself and crush every organ in my body. I am gonna fix this I'm gonna be a better man and a better boyfriend.
I'm sorry for the long post but I'm a newbie at this and I just wanted to be able to pour out whats been on my mind.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ford/sydnicons/Energetic.gif) motivated
Current Music: The Postal Service - Brand New Colony
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September 6th, 2004
05:27 pm
THAT IS ONE RAD COMBO!
Current Mood: cheerful
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August 31st, 2004
05:45 pm - A boy can dream right
lol I think this quiz is gonna get me in trouble with Rebecca. I love you babes =P .
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05:41 pm - Great Quiz
Found a really great quiz hope you enjoy!
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12:18 pm - more pics of Daves car I might buy
( Here are more pictures of Daves car )
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: DJ Junior Chavez - house mix
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August 30th, 2004
07:51 pm - import tuning
So today my friend Dave gets his Accord out of the impound and lucky me gets to drive it back to Gabes dad's garage. I mean this car is smooth!
posting some pics
( Read more... )
Current Mood: cheerful
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August 29th, 2004
01:16 am - good day
Today was a good day. Woke up and chatted with my baby Rebecca most of the day, that always makes me happy. Then my friend Dave calls me up to go hang, so we went to Dennys and I had the Denver Scramble not bad. Stopped by my work because we were suppose to have a party ended up clearing some tables cuz my boss is closing shop. Oh wells, time for a new line of work or finally head on to the Air Force. Then we headed out to Ontario Mills to go watch Hero at the AMC. Love the story, but kinda disappointed at the choreograph, not a typical Jet Li action I thought but I enjoyed the movie.
1:30 am wired and I'm missing my baby again but atleast the day wasnt too bad. Oyasuminasai minna!
Current Mood: happy
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